Monday, September 13, 2010

September 16, 2005

Sept. 16, 2005 my Austin died at age 24. It will be 5 years this Thursday. It hurts like it was 5 seconds ago. I can't accept the time passing, the gap of his absence lengthening...

Our country has divided itself with hate groups when we need to collectively come together in peace. Isn't the reason obvious? Austin had a kind and generous heart of great magnitude. Without Austin, the world is out of balance. I am out of balance.

It is all can do to remember to breathe... in and out, in and out. Seriously. I catch myself gasping like a goldfish out of water. Who knew that a simple thing like breathing could be complicated when your heart has been permanently broken.